20. April 2022

I am on an emotional journey these days. After three years not seeing my country and all these changes in between, I am in an emotional turmoil, a storm that comes over me. It's very hard to describe how it feels like to be back to Scotland. I missed it with every heartbeat and finally restrictions are lifted and I have it easier than ever to travel. Nevertheless, I see my country after Brexit, after covid times and people who are not sure where they are now and what kind of future they want...

23. June 2020

I remember. Your fascination for me. Church walls, full of people. You couldn‘t even concentrate. Starring at me until I had to leave. I remember. This Sunday morning at 4 am. Me, the lack crow in the coat. Stockings and overknees. The black hoodie in my face. The drawings in front of these church walls. Me, creeping away. I remember. One of these rainy winter evenings. I walked across your holy house. Tears in the rain. All these questions on my mind. I have searched for you. I remember you....

19. April 2020

I would like to know where you are. What you eat. How you love. After love. If your hunger is still so big. If your passion is still the same. If your are dishonest. Still. I have forgiven you for long time. Forgotten sometimes but you never really disappeared from the core of my heart. Wherever I was, lived, loved, did. This crisis made me thoughtful, connected to people I loved, people I will always remember. I am aware that all this will never come back. These times are over, final like the...

06. April 2020

I lately watched your video, a Palm Sunday morning show of you and your wife. Me, your mistress, now ashes of passionate fires, forbidden fires. Intention of sin in your ideology. And then this scene of an innoscent couple, the ones who try to pretent what they aren't. You don't smile. It takes you a lot of effort to smile. You start explaining traditions, easter stuff. She interrupts you, full of her ego, full of her need for attention. Nobody would notice because everybody believes. But...