Home.

I am on an emotional journey these days. After three years not seeing my country and all these changes in between, I am in an emotional turmoil, a storm that comes over me. It's very hard to describe how it feels like to be back to Scotland. 

I missed it with every heartbeat and finally restrictions are lifted and I have it easier than ever to travel. Nevertheless, I see my country after Brexit, after covid times and people who are not sure where they are now and what kind of future they want ,but I can feel the need of change and new energies back to this country. Maybe they never disappeared. 

Political and environmental talks bring me a bit back to the ground. Listening and sharing my views. Here is where I want to be, how difficult it ever might be. People let me feel that they still love me. Not thinking about past lovers who left dark traces here on my ways, on my heart. That is the burden I obviously have to carry for now because I see that I am not all over things that happened last year. I try to clean my life up and give life a chance again. 

I know where I am really home, I still know what I want and who I am.

When I am here and nowhere else.